Push

I realize that I like to push people away. I like to disappear. That's why I'm not on Facebook. 

I don't answer phone calls, I decline any attempts for meeting.

I always think that people don't care about me. I always think that people will ask me thousand and one questions I don't want to answer. I always think people will pressure me about career, marriage.

However, when I finally agree to meet, it turns out to be GREAT. I even feel GREAT inside.

Maybe I should stop being a loner and go out to meet people more often.